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I can’t not love you, Nicky. I just can’t. You’re in my soul..."

Jasper laughed. “Even at nine you had a crush on me, didn’t you?”

“That was no crush. It was full-on love. And I wanted to put my mouth on you so badly—somewhere, anywhere. Wiping my spit on you seemed like a viable alternative.”

“Marking me.”

“You still smell so good,” he mumbled and buried his face in Jasper’s neck. “I think that was the last thing I forgot about you. How you smelled. I forgot your voice first, and I cried for days when I realized I couldn’t remember it. And then I forgot the color of your eyes, although that god damn picture in The Atlantic was proof enough I hadn’t forgotten at all. I grieved for you. Like you were dead.”

“I always loved you. I can’t even pretend I loved God more.”

If this longing spread any further he’d be utterly, completely lost. His fall would be inevitable, like the rebelling angels against God.

And I’d fall gladly...