Kaiylah Muhammad's Blog - Posts Tagged "growing-pains"
New levels, New devils...
New levels, NEW DEVILS...
No pain, NO GAIN...
High risk, HIGH REWARD...
We've all heard these sayings. But how many of us have the strength, or better yet the COURAGE to apply these sayings to our lives?
When you're trying to lose weight and you start working out, it's painful. You dread it. You're body is sore. But after each workout you feel better. And eventually you feel stronger. And eventually you reach your goal weight.
This is the same thing we go through spiritually when we are trying to reach a new level. It's painful. You dread it. Your spirit is sore. But if you push through the pain and the fear you will be so filled with gratitude once you reach that new level.
For the past year I've been facing more fears than I ever have. And because of that I'm now in a position where I'm forced to move to a new level and I'm TERRIFIED. Last night I cried in a bowling alley bathroom... I felt like there was thousands of voices in my head. And at first, I thought this was my spirit hurting... but it was my ego hurting. I thought I was losing myself, but I was really losing my ego. I feel like God is stripping me of my ego so my spirit can grow. I feel like God is stripping me naked to give me a confidence that comes from overcoming struggle...not a false sense of confidence that comes from praise and recognition from other people.
So the saying is true...new levels, new devils. For as long as you live you will ALWAYS have some form of struggle in order to grow........
unless you're not growing.
No pain, NO GAIN...
High risk, HIGH REWARD...
We've all heard these sayings. But how many of us have the strength, or better yet the COURAGE to apply these sayings to our lives?
When you're trying to lose weight and you start working out, it's painful. You dread it. You're body is sore. But after each workout you feel better. And eventually you feel stronger. And eventually you reach your goal weight.
This is the same thing we go through spiritually when we are trying to reach a new level. It's painful. You dread it. Your spirit is sore. But if you push through the pain and the fear you will be so filled with gratitude once you reach that new level.
For the past year I've been facing more fears than I ever have. And because of that I'm now in a position where I'm forced to move to a new level and I'm TERRIFIED. Last night I cried in a bowling alley bathroom... I felt like there was thousands of voices in my head. And at first, I thought this was my spirit hurting... but it was my ego hurting. I thought I was losing myself, but I was really losing my ego. I feel like God is stripping me of my ego so my spirit can grow. I feel like God is stripping me naked to give me a confidence that comes from overcoming struggle...not a false sense of confidence that comes from praise and recognition from other people.
So the saying is true...new levels, new devils. For as long as you live you will ALWAYS have some form of struggle in order to grow........
unless you're not growing.
