Hey everyone, Isra here.

I appreciate that this isn't the most positive post in the world but I have to be real with you guys about myself and what I do.

As Christmas approaches, I wish all of you who choose to celebrate it, a very happy Christmas and I hope it is everything that you hope it to be. I personally do not celebrate the season. I'm an adult and overtime I have vastly outgrown it. So it is just a normal day to me. A day where I consider working on writing projects or craft projects (I'm quite the crafter) I have on going, or maybe I'll watch a movie and tomorrow I am looking forward to the peace and quiet as everyone will be out of my building celebrating with their families.

Of course the festive season isn't the reason for my bah humbug post today, no. It is actually because of publishing difficulties. As many of you know, I have been planning to move over to a different company, aside from amazon and I have been doing my best today to get my work uploaded. And will it have it? Will it heck! There has been non stop technical problem after another and after two hours I felt like I was going to pull my hair out! And who wouldn't after seeing the same page for almost an hour on your screen!!!

So of course after two hours I gave up and admitted defeat. Someone may be helping me upload it but if in the instance this thing doesn't work out, well guess what I'll be sticking with amazon's createspace because with all the hassle today, well if I can make my life a bit easier and in turn, make the readers life a bit easier with the content neatly uploaded and ready, then hell I will do that!

At the moment I am undecided on what to do. Whether I should stick with this new company or go back to amazon? The author life for a self published indie author isn't plain sailing. To be quite honest, I did have some doubts over this new company. I'm still not sure why, but those doubts must have been there for a reason! And a few things have cropped up after today's incident that have given me reason to pause, and think, well should I do this?

I imagine every writer goes through this at some point and I want to be real with you guys. This isn't an easy career. It's not guaranteed to make you $$$$$'s. But it is a passion and a creative one at that. It is also one I enjoy, hence why I stick with it. And I encourage others to stick with it too. There will be hardships. You are going to make mistakes and most importantly it won't be easy but it will be worth it! So while I am undecided at this time, which way to go, I do know one thing, it will be worth it! And that's the important part to remember.

So I end this point with a positive note, a silver lining, because everything always happens for a reason!

Isra xxx