Todd

“You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you.”
― Richard Siken, Crush

“And no one can ever figure out what you want,
and you won't tell them,
and you realize the person who loves you isn't the one you thought it would be,
and you don't trust him to love you in a way
you would enjoy.

And the boy who loves you the wrong way is filthy.
And the boy who loves you in the wrong way keeps weakening.
You thought if you handed over your body
he'd do something interesting.”
― Richard Siken, Crush

“You are playing cards with three Jeffs. One is your father, one is your
brother, and the other is your current boyfriend. All of them have seen
you naked and heard you talking in your sleep. Your boyfriend Jeff gets
up to answer the phone. To them he is a mirror, but to you he is a room.”
― Richard Siken, Crush

“You just wanted to prove there was one safe place, just one safe place where you could love him. You have not found that place yet.”
― Richard Siken, Crush