Gabe

“There, he would live in total anonymity, a small-time bandit with no name. Nobody would believe the stories he would recall. Nobody would believe the history of his sadness.”
― Eric Gamalinda, My Sad Republic

“Anybody who says punk isn't queer doesn't know what punk is.”
― Casey McQuiston, One Last Stop

“It offended him and mocked him: the fact that the world didn't die when his heart did. ”
― Eric Gamalinda, My Sad Republic

“If I am in a state of becoming, it has no endpoint. I imagine replacing the memories of everyone I've ever spoken to with the impression that they have only ever seen me as a being clothed in light. In the early part of the twentieth century, homophobes and eugenicists joined forces to study what they called inversion, an early term for homosexuality, gender nonconformity, and transness. They believed they could read and police queerness on the body.

Maybe this is why I don't want to make myself legible. I want to erase the meanings that have been ascribed to my breath, to my sweat, to my hair and fat and skin. I trace the green veins in my neck that branch down into my breasts as feathers. I am painting myself as the bird that, to the world outside this room, does not exist. I draw myself clothed in wings and tell myself that even the angels are sexless.”
― Zeyn Joukhadar, The Thirty Names of Night