Terrisa

“this is what happens to people when they spend their entire life inside books + never come out: real life starts to grate by comparison.”
― Garth Risk Hallberg, City on Fire

“My grandfather always said that living is like licking honey off a thorn.”
― Louis Adamic

“A flapping tongue puts out the light of wisdom."~Polly Shine”
― Jonathan Odell, The Healing

“I lie in a bathtub of cold water, still sweating and singing love songs to myself. I put the gun to my head and cock it.

I think of my Grandma and remember that old feeling of being so in love that nothing matters except seeing and being seen by her. I drop the gun to my chest. I'm so sad and I can't really see a way out of what I'm feeling but I'm leaning on memory for help. Faster. Slower. I think I want to hurt myself more than I'm already hurting. I'm not the smartest boy in the world by a long shot, but even in my funk I know that easy remedies like eating your way out of sad, or fucking your way out of sad, or lying your way out of sad, or slanging your way out of sad, or robbing your way out of sad, or gambling your way out of sad, or shooting your way out of sad, are just slower, more acceptable ways for desperate folks, and especially paroled black boys in our country, to kill ourselves and others close to us in America.”
― Kiese Laymon, How to Slowly Kill Yourself and Others in America