Tanya N.

“She'd heard once that guilt was for something you'd done- you could feel guilty for a certain behavior or action but still fundamentally know you were a good person- but shame was deeper, shame was for who you were.”
― Coco Mellors, Blue Sisters

“I miss her and I miss her and I miss her," she began. "And I wait for the feeling to end because every other feeling has ended, no matter how intense, no matter how hard - but this won't. There's just no end to the missing. There was life before and there's life now. And I can't seem to accept it. I can't accept that I'll have to miss her forever. There will never be relief. There will never be a reunion. And I wish I had a God. I wish I believed in an afterlife or something, anything. But when I try to talk to her in my head, there's no response. I can't hear her. And I can't feel her. All I have is this missing. And part of me is glad it won't end because it's all I have to connect me to her now.”
― Coco Mellors, Blue Sisters

“Her sister curled in on herself, as though she could make herself small enough for the hurt not to find her.”
― Coco Mellors, Blue Sisters

“But we're not in love," I said.
"How do you know?" said Richard.
"Because I'm still in love with Mark. And you're still in love with Helen. And we would just huddle together, two little cuckolds in a storm, with nothing to hold us together but the urge to punish the two of them for breaking our hearts.”
― Nora Ephron, Heartburn