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“The tower demolishes, but it also liberates. Everything must fall, including limitations. The star displays renewed hope, tranquility, and beauty. It’s a shimmering beginning that can only be accessed after the destruction of all that we once knew.”

Chapter 15 - tattooing ritual

**inhale ~ exhale** So. Damn. Good.

“All my life, I’d apologized to everyone for everything. I strived endlessly to atone for sins that had never belonged to me.

It felt like a radical, revolutionary act to take up this much space, to tell the world I was done carrying excess weight.”

💪💔😮‍💨

“I wrestled with this inescapable dichotomy between light and dark, sex and violence, retribution and sublimity.”

“…A man’s unchecked ego breeds alienation, profound spiritual loneliness, and insecurity. Instead of self-betterment, those souls will falsely believe that conquering, dominating, and stealing others’ light is the only way to fill the bottomless voids they themselves carry.”

**sigh**

“Men need a higher power, or they will become their own. Whether that higher power is group consciousness, the spirit of the revolution, or devotion to one or more god — there has to be a system of mending that exists beyond their egos. Greatness is derived from connection...”

“I am so stupidly in love with you.”

“I’m still mad. But I stupidly love you too. Emphasis on stupid.”

Everything became bigger in vampirism. Our feelings, our sense, our urges…It was the reason so many vampires shut it all off completely, giving up on their humanity. I’d built intricate structures within the clan to guard against it - emphasizing philosophy, art, depth, and camaraderie to guard against the apathetic call of immortality.
We would never be like them.

I can’t get over chapter 10. Im not sure better spice has ever been written.

Chapter F***king 10

YAS 👏 🪭🥵 Spicy Perfection. O. M. G.

“You don’t want to be my good girl anymore?”
☠️☠️☠️

“Careful angel, I bite.”

I am f***king feral for Kylo. **eyes rolling back**

Princeton: “if you don’t grieve properly, that pain will leak out in far less desirable ways. Feel it, Kylo.”

Ugh, Princeton was a great character, he was gone too soon.

“I let you down before, but I’m taking over. You were never meant to hold any of this for me. You’re free.”

“Do you trust me?”

“I can try.”

Of course she trusted me. All she’d ever wanted was to let go. She didn’t want to be a savior. A protector. An angel or a monster. She just wanted to be a kid.

“We aren’t here in this house anymore. You know that right?”

“We can leave. We don’t have to stay here, we already left. I have my own place, somewhere far away. We live with someone who loves us — Mena…Idris.

I have a closet full of pretty dresses, none of them black.

We never have to come back here again. I love you. You’re safe now.”

💔💔💔

Man did I just go sprinting into the deepest first chapter EVER?! Omg…here we are healing our inner child. 😭😭😭 I’m having palpitations

Evie: “I’m good. I’m good. Im good. Please, just see that I’m good!”

Mena: “You’re better than good, you’re my favorite girl in the world.”

Idris: “Mine too.”

😭😭😭

“I still love you, because I’m fucking stupid. But I’m leaving now. I know blood bonds can be reversed. I don’t care how risky the procedure is. I will carve you out of me by any means necessary, and you will never be able to find me again.”

NOOOOOOOOOO 😱😭😩

“It’s okay, angel. You’ll get it right next time. You’re brilliant. We aren’t defined by our mistakes. We’re defined by our ability to take ownership for our shortcomings and to do better in the future.”

“What a fascinating thing for you to say right now.”

POKE

☠️☠️☠️ no fucking way

“Who is Hekate?”
“A chthonic goddess of the crossroads, sorcery, death, and darkness, protector of witches and the downtrodden. Alternatively, protector of women who’d run out of fucks to give.” 🤭

Ugh, this is breaking my heart. Eeeeeek

Ummm this whole “bad girls get punished and good girls get rewarded”….uuuuhhhh Evie was really really bad…and got it really really good Bahahah and uhhhh…yaaaaa…yummmm. Please, Kylo…Thank you, Kylo…🪭🫠

Omg…Kylo is so good to Evie, I just can’t, it’s so good.

“Let’s practice, baby. Beg.”

🪭🪭🪭

“I couldn’t stop myself from falling.”

“Good. Because I’m here to catch you, always. Especially when you don’t trust me to.”

Kylo melting my face off…

“…One day, it won’t feel that way. One day, being loved by me will feel as certain and effortless as breathing. And I am more than happy to show you how much I care for you, how much I would do anything to earn and keep your trust, every day until then.”

“My love is not contingent upon your behavior. You don’t have to perform for my love. You don’t have to beg for it. Or even ask very politely. I love you for existing. I love you for being you…

Princeton…😏

“But I’m a brat and a masochist, so here we are.”

“I think I’ve always been waiting for you. My soul recognized yours the moment I saw you.”

“Let me in, Evie. Let me love you.”

🫠🫠🫠

“Id do it all over again. All of it — the heartbreak, the loss, the betrayals and the sacrifices. I would live every moment all over again. Just to stand here in the sand with you. You were always the destination, the tomorrow I sought on the horizon.”

“You mind if I steal that? It would go great in a novel.”

“Take whatever you need. Always.”

Ending perfection **sigh**

I am fucking giddy at the introduction of Kylo. I know he’s the MMC in the other duet and I am so ready for more of this world. O.M.G.