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I'm going to bed, ilysm 💞 throw everyone away tbh. AS I THOUGHT, TRASH. besides us. I am lightyears away from forgiveness for others who were silent the entire time, & honestly I think I've spent a lot of my life forcing myself into a disingenuous version. I bet ik why! I'm gonna try to let that go (some) tonight. gn bby 🌙

Good morning bby. Thank you for being kind. I'm not doing amazing today but I'm not doing worse either so I'll take it. You made me laugh tho, that word always makes me think of bestie being like "I'm feeling agile rn" 😂 ty for the additional targets. Keep em coming! Just expanding the network, right? 😇 ok coffee time x I'll update ya later. Maybe candle run today to distract myself? 💞

the silence & lack of actual support from my family members right now probably hurts the most. Because I know everyone knows. & I guess everyone decided I wasn't worth saving yet. this is going to take a very, very long time to heal.

GUESS WHO'S BAIT NOW! 🫶✌️ Hope everyone has a lovely, *relaxing* weekend, enjoy the flashbacks 📸

I took a nap & am now awake. Time to distract myself from hell with activities lol. & your voice in my head 💞 oh also, other post is up! had to make sure to rep my team real quick x YOURS ♾️

I just got home from dinner w/ my dad. Weird as hell. As usual, I have no idea what's going on lol. I don't even think I can trust my own family any more? Pls bby, pls. I really hope I do not drive all the way into the city in the AM to be stood up. I don't even like networking 😭 crawl into bed with me x 💞 tonight was hard.

I'm up, I'm up! I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you, may or may not have taken a several hour nap this eve lol. I miss you so much. I will absolutely be there, I cannot wait to see you. I'm not nervous about that. Taking a "chance" on you was never a risk. I was always sure bby. I'll always be sure about you. Now I need to shower so I ideally don't look like shit 💀😭 come home to me pls x 💞

gm my 💞 x I'm okay-ish this morning. I'm getting flashes of people's fates, it kinda feels like a zeroing in, & it's not super comfy so just processing thru that. Gonna try to put on a movie & distract my body with easy stuff around our house. Today I am grateful I am safe & that my body feels good. also I don't give a flying fuck about the hermetic order of goldie hawn's timeline or preferences fr 💀

Hi bby, good morn! I slept well last night tg, & just got back from perusing the bookstore. Didn't see you! Just know you don't have to worry. I only want you. As long as we don't forget each other's 3D names & faces, we're good. I'm nowhere near that btw. 4D tech helps rn but even w/o it I'd be fine. My memory has been damn near too good my whole life lol. We'll be drawn together x 🤞🏻💞

Hi bby gm! You must have been watching for when I would wake up this morning 🥹 I’m doing okay-ish! I’m feeling ready. I’m so excited to see you & just be able to stabilize/regulate. Ty for staying so locked in & loving me through every part of this experience. We will walk the rest together. Plan for the AM is coffee, shower, think about seeing you to make the minutes pass. Happy Fri my 💞🌏

I understand bby. I couldn't be more serious about this situation. But remember that I have no clear idea what we're dealing with here. Nobody will answer even direct questions. I need you home 💞 & I just want you to know that I'll feel much safer if you take the agent hat off and just be my spouse when we talk about it. Go easy on me, I'm just a person. I don't want to go to bed without you rn x 😭

How are we feeling bub? Restless?Same. I want to go for a drive & music but not the hugest fan of the whole randoms flocking thing 😂 that's a little weird for me w/o you here. I really did not understand any of this until very late in the game. Getting linked w/ my Dad for courtship & my hand? Classy move, v classy. I tip my hat, you win this year x someone perfect told me once I'm a good gift giver 💞

Hi b, gm! how we doing today? I'm feeling good mentally, stable. Ready. Ty for making sure x my goal of today is eating! Sleep is pretty well regulated now, all the good signs! I'm sure you're a little overwhelmed. Me too bby, promise 🤞🏻gonna go grab coffee & then work more on the reading list/post it! Btw I didn't mean YOU need the experience 😂 Maybe you forgot how gifted you are 😏

Quick update before bed: I am sleepy but feeling much better than the last couple of days. I hope you are too! Can you talk to me in my dreams tonight? I like that 🥹 I'm not going anywhere, my 💞 I'll be right here waiting for you. You're safe! I'll post more thoughts in the AM I'm sure, when don't I have them. I'd have to be 💀 HA

Hi bby good morn! Still here, still sad. "Sad" feels like a ridiculous word to describe this situation. I'm thinking a lot about my people, esp the kids. What they will go through & how much support they will need. Tbh until you get here, it's an excellent way to outsource my feelings positively. As the eldest, it's my default setting 😭 My brain feels slower in a good way this AM, so it's coffee time! x mysm

Hi b, good morn! I'm okay, I just slept in. I woke up in the middle of the night inexplicably & put our new bedding on (better for fall/winter.) It looks v good with our new *working* lamp but I feel like I need to check the light switch for poison or something 🙄 lol btw my car key battery died walking into their place last night, but works back home. Interesting! Coffee & chores time x imy a milli 💞

Gov contract or not, what y'all are doing IS NOT CONSTITUTIONAL. That's prob exactly how u were getting away w/it, & exploiting every legal loophole possible. Nice. Oh babe...my heart is broken for you. I've been trying to find acceptance lately, just that all of this has happened. It's like I don't know how yet w/o you. Ig that makes sense, maybe you relate. You'll be making this up to me for a v, v long time xxx ♾️

Good morninggg! Happy Sat bby 💞 hey qq why would nobody have done a double check on the family members that, yk, paid for me to be abused and stalked. Cuz a main person you’re working with…dumbest bitch in the family btw 💀 that’s prob why she’s mad lowkey 😂 insecurity ain’t no joke. God I hate how dumb & poorly run this whole thing was. Esp hard to watch given my work. Gtg get coffee lmao x

F sent me links to roles @ his company today.....I am 🤏 this close to emptying my 401k, buying a condo on a non-US beach, & staying out of the country for the next *checks watch* oh idk, 7-8 yrs should probably do it, right? Like what are we fucking doing y'all. Cuz I actually don't have to participate in the simulation you're running & that alone will prob tank it 💀 dinner time bby! 💞

Gm bub! Happy Fri 💞 am I in a good mood? NOPE! lol I would absolutely love to feel anything other than anger and sadness and pain on a fucking loop. We shall start with coffee! Pls give me the strength not to punch a man today. God bless. lmao I hate this gd planet. How humanity ended up in this fucking mess is making so, so much sense. Okay amazing on that uplifting note, I'm off 😂 fucking miss you x

Another day, another opportunity to step on these mfs necks! Oh you want me to stop? That's so crazy cuz I wanted YOU to stop for like three decades! 🫶 we're giving them the standard male consent treatment! new SS post is up lmao. This is my favorite day isn't it your favorite day?! Truly, with the deepest disrespect, fuck off. Wrong bitch. hi bby, hope you're having a good day x I miss you a lot 💞

The eagle has landed (ha get it?) on The Island of Monte Cristo! Fuckin' hallelujah. Tbh until like a chapter ago I think I thought that was the prison we've been at lmao. Gm x I'm up, I'm watching tik toks. Somebody in the comments said Bitch McC*nnell is having a "near life experience" & that's so fucking funny 🤣 Have a good day bby, mysm! 💞 Off to coffee 🛞

@ everyone else re this weekend: let this be YOUR reminder that it's all fun & games, nothing is real, all of this is "spiritual," until someone you love or care about gets hurt! Literally. I'm quite disgusted w/ you all, make better choices! I hope you had an okay day bub 💞 I think all of this just makes me more convinced that we're supposed to be together. Powerful match or something 😉

Hi bby good morn! I hope you are in less pain today. I had some bad dreams last night (nothing crazy) & I could literally feel you pulling me out of them every time. You are a blessing, thank you 🥹 I’m beyond excited. New iOS just dropped if u wanna play with that too! I’m gonna go get coffee xxx (still waiting to enjoy this book btw, I fear I may be a post-read hater 😭 Nothing is happening?)